This one's for Meggy!

So this post is entirely for Meggy. Meggy I don't have time to write much tonight, but I just wanted to let you know that I love you! And you are a beautiful, caring.. and amazing young lady! I am so glad to be able to have you in my life (Even though we are quite a distance apart!!) That's all I can write for now hun.. But yeah soon I'll actually write a longer post!!

Much love,
Sara

Up late.. can't sleep..

So I have no idea why I'm posting.. except for the fact that I can't sleep of course.. (Not such a good thing seeing as I have a class bright and early!!!) I'm not even sure what to write about to tell the truth!!

Life's been super weird lately. I went through my highschool senior year convinced that even though EVERYONE around me told me how my life would change in college. How my friends would be different.. how who I am would be different.. so on and so on.. I convinced myself that I WOULD not let that happen. It's so weird though.. It's like, you actually get into college and it slips from your fingers no matter how tightly you are holding onto it.

I'm definitly not depressed about it or anything haha.. nope.. it's been mostly good changes!! Some, tough.. very tough. But most, in the end have made me stronger in who I am. It's really been a time where I have just been learning more and more of who I really am if that makes sense. I never really felt like I was that insecure of a person.. I was decently outgoing, made many friends.. and rarely struggled with feeling uncomfortable. But now, it's different.. I don't even remember the last time I've felt insecure or uncomfortable in college. I am not exactly a hundred percent as talkative as I was even as of last year!!

It's crazy.. I see more and more also who I am in Christ. Haha.. right now I'm not putting in enough discipline myself for sure though. I need to learn discipline, it's probably what I've been praying about the most lately.. because I'm just not putting in enough effort.. but, things just do seem really clear to me, and it's been nice. I'm almost a hundred percent positive what God wants me to do with my future.. Although that can always change. I've never felt so sure of things though.. I think the reason for this is that I've been learning patience with God's timing as of late. I've asked God where He wants me to go.. and it just seems doors are continually opening and I'm trusing in Him being sovereign in my life.. So yeah.. that's been fabulous..

I think all in all.. what I'm trying to say is for you highschool seniors out there.. the ones that are ready to graduate.. If you are like I was right before graduation, your biggest fear is change. Change definitly scared me to no end.. But it's really not so bad! It's tough change, yes. But it is change for the better. It is God making you into more of who He wants you to be.. It is awesome! Ok well that's all of my ramblings of the night!!

Love you all!!

Sara

P.S. Sorry if that made no sense at all.. I am really really tired.. And not thinking the clearest..